Reflecting on the past week...

So, as with anything, time and distance helps to mend bad things and bad feelings. I feel like I am moving through the 5 stages of grief after the news from last Friday.

5 Stages of Grief:

1. Denial --  the world becomes meaningless and overwhelming. Life makes no sense. We are in a state of shock and denial. We go numb. 
2. Anger -- Underneath anger is pain, your pain. Anger is strength and it can be an anchor, giving temporary structure to the nothingness of loss. At first grief feels like being lost at sea: no connection to anything.
3. Bargaining -- We become lost in a maze of “If only…” or “What if…” statements. We want life returned to what is was…if only, if only, if only. The “if onlys” cause us to find fault in ourselves and what we “think” we could have done differently. 
4. Depression -- We withdraw from life, left in a fog of intense sadness, wondering, perhaps, if there is any point in going on alone? The first question to ask yourself is whether or not the situation you’re in is actually depressing. 
5. Acceptance -- Finding acceptance may be just having more good days than bad ones. Instead of denying our feelings, we listen to our needs; we move, we change, we grow, we evolve. 

I currently feel that I am in the anger phase... I want nothing more that show the doubters that they are beyond wrong in their thoughts.